Look myself in the mirror… What have I been doing? Slacking?! Cannot forgive myself… Complacency? Nahz… its a matter of stupidity. This must be the worst ever Maths paper I have ever done in my life… yes I’m telling you, for the goddamn (reaching) 22 years of my life. It all seemed a natural thing back then to me… but that must have been a myth. Diligence was the key factor, back when I studiously made sure I completed each tutorial when it came out. (Thanks Ken for being the best study companion I could ever ask for in jc)

Now it was different, I’m in biz school. The mathematical proficiencies required over here is vastly inferior, if I may say that. Has it eroded my diligence, has it diminished my mathematical aptitude? Perhaps… perhaps… Now I couldn’t do much even with a cheat sheet when my brain was ingeniously filled with formula in jc… There were questions I could have integrated outside the panic of exam conditions. No doubt the confidence level was lacking because I slept/ facebooked in lectures, dozed off during tutorials, and attempted to revise for 1/3 days.

I had an astute intimacy with maths… and I need to find it all back. Whoever is up there please let me embrace it once more. I put it down here, for the nth time, that I’m going to work damn hard next academic year, and hopefully, it will be the 1st time that I’m actually serious about it.