On a random night, with a random group, had a random talk, about random girls people, stirring random memories, driving random thoughts, grasping random hopes

梦中淡露月澄辉
追忆玉容寄相牵
缠绵缱绻舞翩跹
谁怜伊人独伤悲
情深缘浅任苍穹
浮华一世转瞬空
思念跌碎冰封泪
孤鸿长水语凝噎
独步江湖剑影寒
光阴荏苒满霜鬓

I have been laming around too much during this break, wasting time away on something that I probably cannot hope to accomplish. So I decided to downgrade it a little. Essentially I redefine my entire project. I have now embarked on writing my own little story with some elements influenced by the little (and great) things I feel about the greater aspects of life, and the intricate and complex nature of human relationships.

It is gonna be released over time and I hope that enough divine power will fuel my motivation to carry on writing it. As of now, there is only the introduction to the introduction, which stands at merely 327 words -.-

But in any case, because this may become too sensitive, philosophical and morbid, there will be restricted access to it. So right now there is no readers! (But there is nothing much to read yet, at least for now)

Tada, apologies if this sounds like the post title of anyone Anyway during this school break I have avoided commitments to any major activities/jobs/whatever so I can have more free time. Interestingly, I have expanded upon the variation of activities on my PC contrary to what I would have thought initially.

First up, I’ve been playing daily puzzles at kenken.com which was incidentally introduced to me by ken, lol… This seems to be a much more advanced manifestation of sudoku/kakuro, and in fact I must say I am kind of addicted. Allows me to work some brain everyday. Maybe I should just tackle the 9×9 puzzle everyday as it is the most difficult. Unfortunately, jh thrashes me upsidedown in this game also, bleah.

Another daily thing I’ve also been doing is brain exercise game thing that is supposedly developed by Dr. Kawashima. I’m not sure how useful it will be at this stage so I’m just fooling around. There are many many different kind of puzzles in the game aimed at boosting the differing functions of our puny grey mass. Three distinct sections are identified, the Frontal Lobe, Parietal Lobe and the Temporal Lobe. Seems like I need to work on more imagery as it appears to be my weakest area, hahaha. Have much more sense with numbers. In any case, lets see if I will keep going on and do this everyday. (As of the hols there is still ample free time, not sure if it can be sustained though)

I have also started some work on rebuilding fitness, though I am still very disappointed at the state I am in now. A more serious proper consistent regime should be in the workings anytime soon, probably on Monday. Hopefully this serves as a springboard for me to actually put consistent effort in physical fitness.

With mental and physical agendas out of the way, where do I place my emotional attachments? I still enjoy the usual things I do, watching my dramas here and there, movies here and there, having random chit-chat sessions here and there. But those are the usual stuffs. The more significant thing that happens is I have started my own personal mini (maybe not so mini) project that I think will probably never be completed, but I still enjoy tinkering with it.

Well, the results for yet another semester had been disclosed. And I must say I feel regret over what I had been doing during much of the sem, including the period leading up to and even during the exams itself. Sometimes I do wonder if it is worth it to try too hard to achieve the impossible. While other people are looking for easy low level modules to fill their degree requirements, I had been competing with the elites from another faculty in the pursuit of a difficult minor. I think I can take a step back now to reformulate my plans. My result in those modules are crappy enough to sway my will, and this is the time to stop, yes… after going through 4 painful modules without an A and wasting 2 of my precious S/U options…

I feel horrible. It’s an emo period. None of my fellow captains achieve their expectations. Sometimes life can be full of surprises. The modules I had A+ never were the ones I put much effort in, yet the same effort can result in something half as good. Time to take a big long break now, and refocus when the going gets tough. I must do it. Need to embrace the glorious feeling again.

这是残酷的现实，还是多疑的猜测。 我度过了多少漫长的孤独日子，一次又一次遇见了让我心酸的片段。 难道我就如此失败，就连在你们生活中拥有一个配角的价值也没有？ 双眸闭上偶尔的美好回忆也只不过是过眼云烟。 那微淡的记忆毕竟是无法演绎的历史，如风飘去。 也许我只是你的避风港，也许我只是你的救生圈。 就只因为我的理想造成了时间的疏散，我只会是遥远的局外物吗？

孤君只影瞑思悲
古梦嫣然随风去
回首莫见几心知
细细密语谁知晓

我会珍惜现在的真心好友，希望我们深挚的友谊能延续永久，超越时空的考证。