September 7, 2010

如果时间能够倒流…

Posted in My Life, Mind & Heart at 12:55 am by ryushin

其实我没有想象中坚强。。。是我太过孤傲,还是那脆弱的自尊心根本无法容纳失败?一个憔悴的心灵能够承受多大的挫折,一次意外的落差能够撕裂多深的伤痕?世间岂会有完美的事态,但最深处的内心还是渴望那不可能的可能。在无人看见的遥夜里冥思幻想中的回忆和无法实现的未来,那才是真正的我,但这一切无非梦一场。

月亮的残缺比不上我心中的空缺。坎坷曲折道路的重叠何时才能得到圆满?暮光下的雪花飘在我身影后,仿佛淡露讽刺的涵意。如果时间能够倒流,我能做些什么,是否紧紧抓着你,还是献上一段不真诚的祝福?

在最无助的寂静中,我只伸手追求一丝光芒。问君何能驾驭命运枷锁?

October 11, 2009

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June 28, 2009

Random Post

Posted in My Life, Mind & Heart at 2:21 pm by ryushin

On a random night, with a random group, had a random talk, about random girls people, stirring random memories, driving random thoughts, grasping random hopes

梦中淡露月澄辉
追忆玉容寄相牵
缠绵缱绻舞翩跹
谁怜伊人独伤悲
情深缘浅任苍穹
浮华一世转瞬空
思念跌碎冰封泪
孤鸿长水语凝噎
独步江湖剑影寒
光阴荏苒满霜鬓

June 17, 2009

Something to burn my life away

Posted in My Life, Mind & Heart at 12:26 am by ryushin

I have been laming around too much during this break, wasting time away on something that I probably cannot hope to accomplish. So I decided to downgrade it a little. Essentially I redefine my entire project. I have now embarked on writing my own little story with some elements influenced by the little (and great) things I feel about the greater aspects of life, and the intricate and complex nature of human relationships.

It is gonna be released over time and I hope that enough divine power will fuel my motivation to carry on writing it. As of now, there is only the introduction to the introduction, which stands at merely 327 words -.-

But in any case, because this may become too sensitive, philosophical and morbid, there will be restricted access to it. So right now there is no readers! (But there is nothing much to read yet, at least for now)

June 8, 2009

Happy Birthday to Myself

Posted in General, My Life, Mind & Heart at 12:00 am by ryushin

It is that time of the year again, the time of the year of new challenges, new ambitions, and a new IPPT window. Its kind of funny in a sense that I tend to spend this day, or the days around celebrating other people’s birthday instead. I know just too many June babies (btw we rox :D) and for the most part of my early life, its always a combined simple dinner with my family, coz my daddy’s birthday is one day before mine!

Saw ken write about birthday wishes. That sounds so foreign… I actually forgot since when did I stop bothering about that. I remember the old times when my grandma and parents kept wishing me 学业进步. Maybe it helped afterall? Perhaps I should think about making a wish this year? I wish for _ ______ ___ ________ __________ ___ ________ __ __ ___ ___ _________ _ ____.

June 5, 2009

What I Have Been Doing

Posted in My Life, Mind & Heart at 10:00 pm by ryushin

Tada, apologies if this sounds like the post title of anyone 😀 Anyway during this school break I have avoided commitments to any major activities/jobs/whatever so I can have more free time. Interestingly, I have expanded upon the variation of activities on my PC contrary to what I would have thought initially.

First up, I’ve been playing daily puzzles at kenken.com which was incidentally introduced to me by ken, lol… This seems to be a much more advanced manifestation of sudoku/kakuro, and in fact I must say I am kind of addicted. Allows me to work some brain everyday. Maybe I should just tackle the 9×9 puzzle everyday as it is the most difficult. Unfortunately, jh thrashes me upsidedown in this game also, bleah.

Another daily thing I’ve also been doing is brain exercise game thing that is supposedly developed by Dr. Kawashima. I’m not sure how useful it will be at this stage so I’m just fooling around. There are many many different kind of puzzles in the game aimed at boosting the differing functions of our puny grey mass. Three distinct sections are identified, the Frontal Lobe, Parietal Lobe and the Temporal Lobe. Seems like I need to work on more imagery as it appears to be my weakest area, hahaha. Have much more sense with numbers. In any case, lets see if I will keep going on and do this everyday. (As of the hols there is still ample free time, not sure if it can be sustained though)

I have also started some work on rebuilding fitness, though I am still very disappointed at the state I am in now. A more serious proper consistent regime should be in the workings anytime soon, probably on Monday. Hopefully this serves as a springboard for me to actually put consistent effort in physical fitness.

With mental and physical agendas out of the way, where do I place my emotional attachments? I still enjoy the usual things I do, watching my dramas here and there, movies here and there, having random chit-chat sessions here and there. But those are the usual stuffs. The more significant thing that happens is I have started my own personal mini (maybe not so mini) project that I think will probably never be completed, but I still enjoy tinkering with it.

May 30, 2009

Great Disappointment

Posted in My Life, Mind & Heart at 7:31 pm by ryushin

Well, the results for yet another semester had been disclosed. And I must say I feel regret over what I had been doing during much of the sem, including the period leading up to and even during the exams itself. Sometimes I do wonder if it is worth it to try too hard to achieve the impossible. While other people are looking for easy low level modules to fill their degree requirements, I had been competing with the elites from another faculty in the pursuit of a difficult minor. I think I can take a step back now to reformulate my plans. My result in those modules are crappy enough to sway my will, and this is the time to stop, yes… after going through 4 painful modules without an A and wasting 2 of my precious S/U options…

I feel horrible. It’s an emo period. None of my fellow captains achieve their expectations. Sometimes life can be full of surprises. The modules I had A+ never were the ones I put much effort in, yet the same effort can result in something half as good. Time to take a big long break now, and refocus when the going gets tough. I must do it. Need to embrace the glorious feeling again.

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